so much it’s not even funny. we used to be such good friends last year, we dated, and even after that she was like a sister to me. we would walk home every single day and have life chats and we would tell each other anything and everything. we helped each other with our problems, got fat on mcdonalds together and had the funniest inside jokes. but all that is gone now. she’s one of the popular girls at school, i mean how could she not be? she’s fuckin gorgeous, she’s funny and she’s got a great personality. on the other hand all the “cool” kids think i’m annoying and i’m a fag, so i’m lucky if i talk to her once a day, even luckier if i get a hug once a month. i honestly don’t know what happened between us, but i want things to go back to the way they were. not being able to talk to her or chill with her kills me, and the worst part is, she has no idea how i feel. she probably thinks i’m fine and i’ve moved on and found new friends just like she has. well she’s right i have found new friends but i’m sure as hell not fine. i wish i could go back to being like a brother to her and having amazing life chats. but unfortunately i dont think things will ever be the same between us. i don’t know why this had to happen, but i hope its for a good fucking reason. Christy Boschman, i miss you so fucking much.